Cant sleep

Damn it! I cant sleep. This dream comes again and wakes me up late… 

There is no correct path in life. You will lose your way many times. What’s important is that you find your way back. Be wise, be strong, and always be true to yourself.


Even miracle takes time


Bad mood


I got a bad mood, a very bad one. And the worst part is, she did not really understand what I was feeling. And it seems she still does not. This is fuckin hard and complicated. I feel like I want to get mad at someone, but I dont know who. 

I am sorry, I have changed

I feel ashamed, really. It felt like she slapped me in my face because what i have done to her. I know that i have made a lot and a lot of mistakes. Time has changed me into a bad boyfriend. I am not the person i used to be. She fell in love with old me, not new me. I made her cry several times for unimportant reasons and those all were on me. 

I am sorry, my woman. I am fully awared that i have changed. And i beg your forgiveness for this. I promise to me myself that i will purify my love, to just love you. 

Give me a chance… 

Fight for you

This year is gonna be the very first year for to fight very hard for you. It is gonna be a long and difficult time for both of us. I know it. I must be patient, and I should make you so too. But trust me honey, nothing lasts forever, even this. 

The time will soon come, for you and for me. Just be patient… 

This Year

Wow… I am amazed with everything that happened in the end of previous year. Honestly, i did not expect that fast progress in only several days. Yet, Alloh swt showed His will in a very easy way. And now, this time forth, i only have one goal. I will do whatever it takes to make it comes true. I know that the chance is very small when i observe this from now’s point of view. But i believe that everything has got a place and time. A night will never be able to use time more than 12 hours and hold a day to come. A day will find its own way.

Finally, all i need to do are thinking harder, working harder, and loving more.

Ya Alloh, strengthen us, make us patient, and make us be grateful for everything. Aamiin…